To others quiet, normal, almost never talks. To people who are close see loud, weird, and never stops talking.  

The story to my piece is people can act different depending on who they are with. The image shows how I am around people I'm not as close with as my family. They lend power to each other by showing how I kind of am around others

      Some say identities are formed by your personality. The control people have in shaping our own identities have different sides to what people think. One opinion is people don't choose it, that they are born that way. Another opinion is that we don't have one until we start to experience things. People say that the influence to our choices are our identities. 

     Walter Mischel is a man who says you can change. All the studies that he did, showed he wasn't finding a consistency. An anonyms person once said personality is how they express things. Deliah said there must be an evil that is embedded in him.

    I say that the situation and people your around make your personality. Because of the things I went through when I was little I am still scared to this day of people yelling when they're mad. But, I also say the way your attitude is to the situation is a part of it. 

Friends

Flash Fiction

You will run away to a new place but in time you will learn that it’s okay.

Rational

Becoming happy again was a big problem for me, but, senior year I have it all, two people have changed my life. Elton and Cassie these two amazing people, I’d never had real friends until I met them, I wish I’d met them sooner but I’m spending the time I have with them. When I went to my old school I never really had friends, just people I spoke to sometimes. I met Elton last year during creative writing, he came from Vinton, and I met Cassie this year from lunch. We have all these great memories, like haunted houses, Cassie knocked over a toy display at walmart, going to pet stores and movie nights. All three of us have things in common we’ve all been through the same things.

Anytime we each have a problem or need to get something off our chests we can talk to each other. They won’t judge but they will help. I’ve never met a person that I can be open with but having two people I can be open with is even better. Ever since I met them I have been so happy, I don’t get sad as often and don’t doubt myself. Meeting these two amazing people has honestly been the best thing to ever happen to me and I will never regret that. These are life long friends and I’ve never had that feeling before.

They Say, I say
People think that they don't have biases, that they aren't a real thing. The public puts those biases into peoples minds to get the to think of things in different ways. A biases can be little or big going from ' My friend is black, I can't be racist' all the way to ' He's gay, but that's okay cause so is my sister I guess'. We all judge one another without even seeing it. It's an ongoing epidemic between what people feel V.S what people actually think about biases.
Meyers states in his ted talk 'How to overcome bias?' she states "Stop trying to be good people and be real." What she means by that if for people to stop being fake and be them honest selves. People want to impress people that the human way, we try to impress others with our biases. Another thing said was from 'Growing up Trans' "I was causing that pain, and that was too much for me" some people have this over whelming pain in themselves that Isn't always easy to overcome and overcome. People have pain, people cause pain, it is natural.
In my opinion pain is something that is within all of us, even me. More people have pain than others, but that's okay. We are the way we are and that is what makes up beautiful. My pain is depression but that's fine, I've accepted it after 5 years and can openly talk about it. I've had depression since 2011 because I watched my great uncle die right before my eyes and in my arms. It messed me up and I always thought it should've been me that was gone not him. He was the best man in my life besides my own father. Biases are real and so is pain but that is okay.

Success

My plans on being Successful



                                           I got 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8 G's in my Bank Account!

                                                                              

                                              Rationale                                                       

The reason of choosing this photo of me holding bank, it shows how money makes me happy and love having it around. Money helps me with everything I need and want, without it I would be poor and suffering. I earn my money with hard work and motivation. I don't really like to brag about the money I got, but if necessary then I can. So my life has been amazing! There has been 0 problems pulling me down and not making make the money I make. The money that I earn isn't all for me, My family comes first so I give What they need. I've been taught that from my parents that giving is a kind thing to do. So I give what they need and make me feel happy knowing they don't have to worry about much. Without money I wouldn't be able to have the thing I have. I feel really proud of my self earning and working for everything I got. I feel that I have  accomplished a lot. With the motivation I have, I  plan on going far in life into success and this is just the beginning.

                                              Reflection

There have been many occasions where at my work, they have said that I'm a hardworker. My family have also said the same thing. they expect to work hard and get somewhere. They enjoy having me around to help out and get things done. They pay me really good, so it just encourages me to work even more. Many of my friends tend to question me same as adults, they ask how I have what I have at a pretty young age. That just shows how there is a goal that wants to be accomplished. There are friends that are also hard workers and like to show their success in life so far. There are many that have gotten to their point in of success. The things they've done, just gives many others a motivation. That's why hard work pays off.

"People aren't good or bad, they are a mix of both", say there is this rich person and is nice to everyone, then everyone starts taking advantage of him. He finds out how they are treating him, so then he starts to change and turn into a bad person and pushes everyone away. That a act of revenge in a way for treating him bad and him being nice. This just comes to show that being nice isn't always a good thing. That happens all the time with people and that are nice and everything and then are taken advantage of.

I can say that I've done a lot so far and have accomplished many things that I could and wanted to do at the age I'm at right now. I still have many obsticales ahead of me and I get to encounter many new things through out this journey. I have learned that If I want something really bad then I have to work for it and earn in it. Everyone has a different way of doing things and working situations out depending on where they are at in life. So far I've done what I can do to have what I have. One thing that really gets me doing things that I want is Motivation. When I see people that don't do anything with their life, it just give me a motive to work hard and not be like them and be someone in life. I wouldn't like to live a life where I'm not happy. Life is to short to not do anything, so as long as I live, I will always be a hard worker and look forward in life for the best. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$  People say money cant buy happiness and In my case, it does. I love my family more then anything and would do anything to gather as much money as possible for them and me. My Goals are pretty big and will happen and that's a fact. Might take years before its happens, but will happen for sure.

Self Portrait

Austin Burkhart

 

Go ahead; look closer; see the real me

When you look at him or see him you may not realize he grew up without knowing his real father. You may not realize that he grew up living with his grandparents. If you see him or hear things about him you may think he’s not smart, nice or that he doesn’t have feelings. But if you look closer and try and get to know him you may see the real man he is. You may see the little boy who has had to help out his family with money ever since I was 9. You may see a young boy who didn’t look at his mom as his real mom because she was working from 10 am to 2am the next morning. He has made mistakes and people decide to judge him off of that and that may scare people away from him. But if you try to understand the real story your perspective may change on the way you think of him. I chose glasses to create the feel that you need to look harder to see who I am. I’m smiling to show that I do have feelings but you can only see them through the glasses. Black and white to create the feeling of loneliness.

Average people say that there personal feelings affect or determine the way we see someone or something. If someone has done something wrong that a person doesn’t believe in they often think poorly of the person. People believe that if you are born badly that you will stay bad and that if you are good you will stay good. They do not believe in the change of people over time.

In the invisibilia podcast the speaker says that not all people who do horrible things are horrible people. This means that if you do something wrong that you should not be described by just the one thing you did wrong. You may be a good person on the inside but made a mistake in your life. He also claims that people judge people on their own prior events with that situation or person.

I believe that people judge people not really by who they are but by what they have heard about them. I also believe that not everyone should be judged by there past behaviors. I think that people can change over time and that people should judge a person when they really get to know them. If you don't know them then don't judge them.

One Day You Wont be an Athlete Anymore..

Self Portrait

https://www.hudl.com/video/3/4169090/59b047b4da5beb0b64c8590e,

Flash Fiction

One day you won’t be an athlete anymore. You won’t have those long bus rides home after a game you lost or won. You won’t have those hyped up moments of catching people while going or hurdles on the blue oval. You won’t have those hyped up moments of you intercepting the ball and running it back for a touchdown. You won’t wake up early on Saturdays for film. You won’t get to post pictures on the Gram or Twitter. You won’t be sore from the track meet or football game and have all the cuts and bruises. You won’t do your pregame rituals anymore. You won’t talk to you bros or team mates anymore or have those laughs like you use to everyday. Eventually everything you looked forward to at the end of the week will fade away. That thing you’d relieve your stress with will end. All the memories and laughs will fade away. Capture it while you can and make the MOST of every moment. Make it as far as you can for as long as you can l, because one day you won’t be an athlete anymore.

Rationale

I feel like these two relate really well to each other and not just because they're both about sports. They relate so well to each other because they both have deeper meaning. Both have meaning of brotherhood and family. I wouldn’t have gotten to take those pictures without my brother’s parents taking them. I wouldn’t have made all of those plays without my team and coaches being there for me and bonding together. Some of us have been together now for 11 years playing that sport and putting our time and effort into making it the best we could. It was so hard accepting that it was actually over after all of that time. Our coach talks about not having regrets but its hard not to when you don’t get what you’ve been working towards basically you’re whole life. Even after it all were still together as a family and one unit. I guess you could say there’s somewhat of an unconditional love for what we do and you can see that if you went to any of our games. How much passion there is in every player on that field. When it finally set in my head that high school football was over it felt like the world stopped and I tried to make my image portray that by choosing a picture that I wasn’t looking into the camera. I also picked one where I was kind of tired and sweaty so you could see it’s not easy. My image is all about focus and bringing you in on myself. As is my video. In my video I tried to have it go with the music so if you did get bored of watching halfway through it’d bring you right back and capture your focus again. If you haven’t figured it out by now, to us football players football is way more than just a game like a lot of people love to say. Football contributes to so many things outside of just football.

I Say, They Say

Identities are formed through personalities. Personalities come formed by life experiences a person has. My own identity was formed through how I grew up and then later in my life actually chose how I was gonna go about things. I feel that when you’re younger you don’t really have your full identity because you don’t get to choose what you want to do. Some bias’s I have or at least the test online said that I “Prefer white people over black people.” Which I guess in my life is true because I’ve grown up around mainly white people. Yes there were a few other black people here and there. My best friend is black and we relate to each other more than anyone. People call us twins all the time and at first it was hard to tell what they meant by that, but now it makes total sense. When you’re around a certain person for a period of time you begin to act like them, talk like them, laugh like them, etc. That why people say you start to use your significant others language and jokes and other things like that. I’ve even heard that you start to look like each other I certain ways. After saying that I have to ask myself can personality change? In my opinion, yes. We as humans do like to believe that we are stable and are capable of living that way or “The right way.” Now in order to change yourself you have to first want to change because if you don’t truly want to change than you won’t. Second you must change the situation you are in. For example, if you’re trying to quit smoking you have to stop being in situations where people can offer you smoke or situations where you’re tempted to smoke. Basically saying that “by changing the way you live or your situation you can, in fact possibly change yourself. It may take time but eventually you will change if you want to” (The Personality Myth). The last reason I feel so strongly about the change of one’s personality is because I’m changing constantly throughout my life. Whether that being physically or mentally, I’m always changing. From constantly changing and personality being defined by traits, which are not permanent to an individual, then your personality can in fact change throughout your life. Which is why “personality is at the center of a lot of stories and is often how you find yourself explaining things” (The Personality Myth).

“Why is it that people have this automatic assumption?” Is it because of the way we’ve been taught history in school, or how people have shown or made black people to be through films? It’s interesting that 60% of black people who took the test preferred white people over black people. Another thing that’s interesting is that you do see a lot of these police brutality things on the news but you don’t hear about all of them and if you think about it all of the same things happen in all of our lives. Whether it’s big or small they still happen. Yeah sure, maybe someone doesn’t end up dead on the news but like they say in the “TED Talk” “Same stories, different people” (How to overcome bias).

Everything works out

He doesn’t live with his dad, but he still has his loving mom. His family doesn’t have the most money in the world, but he gets everything he needs. He’s lost a few close friends, but now he has even better friends. He’s made some dumb choices, but they all taught him a lesson. He didn’t always get good grades, but he’s doing better now. He lost his job but he still has a little weekly income. He used to not feel comfortable with himself, now he’s more confident about himself than ever. In middle school not many people knew him, and now more people know him than he knows others. He may not be the best at sports, but he’s good at other things. He doesn’t have the newest and nicest car, but he has one that works for him. He might not have all of the things he wants, but everything always works out for him, and he’s happy.

Basically the story is of a boy who doesn’t have everything in life that he wants but everything still works out for him. Even without all those things he’s still happy with what he has. The relationship between the picture and the text isn’t directly connected but the image symbolizes the story. The bandages represent the pain and obstacles I’ve encountered and the smile (obviously) represents my happiness.

Many people think they cannot change, but they can. Your personality isn’t set when you’re born, it changes and grows as you get older. The bad people who say they can’t change or can’t help it, can. If someone truly wants to change then they’ll be able to. “People marry people because they believe they’ll always be the same person”. Which is true but not everyone thinks about others changing over time.  

In “The Personality Myth” podcast by Invisibilia, the lady brings up how the prisoners “hatred” tattoo didn’t match his personality. Our assumptions about others aren’t always right so you can’t judge people by their looks or past. “Your beliefs and assumptions direct your mind”. In other words, your beliefs and assumptions can create biases which you may not even be aware of. Whether you believe it or not, you have some sort of bias in you. In the TED Talk ‘How to overcome bias?’ the speaker says “I learned on a bias that I didn’t even know I had”. People get some of their biases at a young age but as you go through life you’ll gain more.

Not everyone thinks that someone’s personality or biases can change but I believe they can. I don’t like it when people say something like “once a thief, always a thief” because it just isn’t true. I have seen one of the most trouble making people I know turn into a kind, hardworking, and determined person. I believe that your personality and bias are connected in the way that your bias affects your personality by shaping the way you feel or act around certain things or people. “At the center of everyone’s story is their personality”. I agree with this statement a lot because personally, I see and know why I am the way I am, based off my past. But you have to remember that your decisions don’t define you. Good people can make bad decisions.

This paper is going to be about having a bias about something. A lot of people in America tend to think that they don’t have a bias at all, or they just don’t think they do but overall they have a bias about something that they don’t even know. There is something called a ted talk that a lady named Verna Myers explains this. She explains in this ted talk and she says “I learned on a bias that I didn’t even know I had”. She explains that we all have a bias that we don’t even know about. Ways that we find out that we have a bias over something is when we are put in a certain situation, or we start having an argument about something then your true feelings come out about that. You could have never known you felt that way but when it gets brought up then you realize you have a certain feeling or bias about it.

I totally agree with her on her perspective on bias. I feel like you go through things in your life that changes the way you feel about certain things. Sometimes you don’t even know you had that feeling for that certain subject or crowd of people but it just comes out because you get put in a situation that makes you express that feeling. Some people have a feeling about black males to be specific. A lot of people say they aren’t racist or they don’t feel any other way around black males then they do white, but when they get put in the position of being around them they freeze up because they are scared. Sometime a secret bias might just sneak up on you in the moment.

Overall, I feel like biases kind of grow on people in away. The people you hang out with can also change the way you feel about other people, or certain subjects in general. Say you hang out with a bunch of white people all the time, when you come around a group of black people you might feel uncomfortable. This isn’t something you should feel bad about, because it’s just the way you mind and body react to something new. You find out that you feel a certain way about someone or something when the event happens.

Rational

There are plenty of reasons I chose this picture and this fictional writing to make my project. My fictional writing is something that fits me perfect. “So many feelings. One person”. That is something that fits me perfect because it’s literally how I feel. I have so many different feeling but I have a main four that really can control my day and how everything is going to go that day. When I am feeling one of these it overrides everything else I am feeling. When I am mad the whole day will be bad. 

          There really isn’t a lot of things that can make me this way but the few that can really get to me. I have a problem of which if I am feeling a certain way I won’t stop feeling that way throughout the whole day. If I’m happy[y when I wake up nothing really can make me change that mood unless it’s something dramatic. If I’m mad when I wake up, there is absolutely nothing anyone can do to make it better. I will not change that mood and everything I do will be based of that mood. That the reason I will literally stay in my room a whole day just because I woke up mad. It might not have nothing to do with anyone else but I will still bring that anger out on them which is pretty bad. So these overall, are the reason I chose this picture and the fictional writing “so many feelings. One person” to be the thing I write my rational over.

 

Who are you?

I know how you feel, it’s hard to understand. You feel like two different people, your feelings and mood are always in flux. Today, you’ll feel like an emotionless robot who doesn’t let anything get to them. Tomorrow, you’ll be an emotional wreck, you’ll be on-edge and your mood will be going from one end of the ‘spectrum’ to the other. You hate that you care too much about everything, you just want to feel at-peace for once. But let me tell you something, one day you’ll look back on all the shitty things you had to endure, and you’ll realize something very important about yourself. At the end of the day, you’ll realize how much stronger all of this made you, and even though you like to contain your emotions, you’ll learn to embrace them. You’ll learn that it’s okay to be emotional, but you will learn to not let every little thing get to you. One day, those two ‘people’ will come together as one and make something amazing.

Rationale: With both my portrait and flash fiction, I tried to focus on expressing how I feel like two different people. Focusing on the portrait, I used the black and white filter so that only two colors would be present, connecting to the ‘two different people” idea. Another edit I did was apply some blur to the picture, as to say that who I am as a person is "blurry". I also didn’t show my face in the picture so that it would reflect how I don’t have one “defined” face, so my face can just be up for interpretation to the reader as to which “person” it is. I also took the picture at the gym because when I’m emotional, that’s where I go to calm myself and release a lot of anger.

                Focusing on the flash fiction, I wrote it in the second-person. I wrote it as if I was a future version of myself giving advice to a past version of me when I am just trying to figure out who I am as a person in moments of self-reflection. I also touched a bit on my past and how it has shaped those two personalities, but I didn’t make it more of a focus because I thought it would take away from the main focus, that being the two personalities. 

                One-Pager: What causes your personality to be the way that it is, and is your personality “set in stone” or does it change? When it comes to these difficult questions, most people believe that over the course of your life your personality doesn’t change. They also believe that a large part of your personality is shaped by your parents, that you receive a lot of their traits. Personally, I believe our personalities are always changing, based on our life situations, and our surroundings. Essentially, I believe that our identities are shaped by our experiences in the past.

            After listening to a podcast in class, my belief was only strengthened. In a radio podcast titled, “The Personality Myth”, Alex Spiegel challenges the notion that our personalities don’t change. One of her main points, involves an inmate in prison: “One of the first prisoners she met was a man named Dan. He had the word "hatred" tattooed on the back of his neck. But as soon as she started talking to Dan, Cohen completely forgot about the tattoo. His personality didn't seem to have anything to do with hatred.” She included this story to show that over time, peoples identities can change, even people who have done horrible things in the past can re-shape themselves. Another argument that was key to persuading me, included a statement from a psychologist Lee Ross: “The point, Ross says, is that ultimately it's the situation, not the person, that determines things.”People are predictable, that's true," he says. "But they're predictable because we see them in situations where their behavior is constrained by that situation and the roles they're occupying and the relationships they have with us.” I think the fact that an esteemed psychologist agrees with her argument, really strengthened it as a whole and sold me on this idea that personalities are ever-changing.

          I used to believe, like most people now, that my personality and identity was “set in stone” and that it would be that way my entire life. But now that I have grown and experienced more and more things, I have looked in the mirror, so to speak, and realized that I have had many different identities. If things are tense at home with my family, I’m more than likely to be on-edge and emotional. But if my household is drama-free, (an unlikely scenario) then I’m more than likely going to be friendly and more laid-back and carefree, it all just depends on the situation. So after self-reflection, I have realized that the notion that our identity is just one defined thing that will never change, is something I don’t believe at all, because it doesn’t apply to anyone that I know, and most importantly, it doesn’t apply to me.

The Real Me

She is hidden. No one knows the real her. If you listen and take the time to find out, you may look at
her differently. You may not see that she lived a trapped childhood. Abuse, neglect, not knowing who to turn to or what the next day would bring. Her cover was a smile. She wore it everyday through it all. She used to have so many friends. She never told them the truth, what was really going on. "Why do you have bruises all over?," she told them she was clumsy and they just laughed along with her. "How did you break your arm?," She told them she fell off her bike. She joined lots of sports and clubs to stay away from home. Even got multiple jobs when she was old enough. No matter how hard she laughed or tried to make it seem unreal, the monster was always at home waiting for her, ready to pounce. Even on the special occasions, birthdays, Christmas, Easter, she could never do anything right. She always turns back to the questions "Why me?, What did I do wrong?, Why do I deserve this?" One day it stopped. The monster was no longer in sight. She felt safe again but so traumatized. The therapy sessions and doctor appointments only got worse. She pushed everyone away even the ones closest to her. She was afraid to be hurt again.

I decided to really reveal myself. I feel like most people don’t actually know who I am and what I think about. I had my sister go out and take a picture of me. I look happy but I’m really not on the inside. I made it all black and white and put flowers around because those are supposed to be a sign of happiness. Black and white is supposed to be the darkness. The sad and alone is how I feel. I don’t have many friends and I’m alone and sad. I blurred myself  out to show that I’m hidden and shy. I put the bright, smiling, happy, sun over everything because I look happy to others.

In "The Personality Myth," podcast by invisibilia, they talk about describing people's personalities based on what they look like and who they are. If you are a prisoner, you are a bad person. If you cry a lot you are a baby. If you are happy you are always happy. They can do that by not looking at someone’s past. They also talked about looking at someone’s past and determining if someone can change, and if their past describes them.

In the podcast they went to a prison and talked to this prisoner named Dave I believe. He was trying to get TED Talks in prison. He seemed like a very nice person. They got to know each other and they never asked what Dave did to be in prison. They were very curious though because he was s nice, he didn’t seem like he could hurt a butterfly. One day they asked him. He had done some very bad things and they didn’t look at him the same. They stopped communication for awhile. Does Dave deserve to be categorized as a prisoner when he has obviously changed and truly regrets what he did? They judged him based on his past.

I believe that everyone deserves a second chance. They put their past in the past, why can’t you? No matter what they did severe or not, people can change. I think people judge right away instead of getting to know the person. I know I have a bad habit of doing it and I know I’m not the only one. We are always taught to hold a grudge. We are never taught to forgive right away. I think if we learn how to forgive a little more, than everyone would be nicer, we wouldn’t be so easy to judge. We would be more understanding, maybe even have more empathy for certain situations instead of just sympathy.

self-portrait haillie hurst

Hated each other.

Went to a party.

Became friends.

Talked and hung out.

Became best friends.

Always with each other.

Never alone.

Became inseparable.

People say were best friends.

Ha!

We say we’re sisters.

         I chose this photo because it’s my best friend and I. i like this photo for this assignment because we're super close and it shows it. It also shows that we can never be serious me and her have a million photos together and this is the closest photo that we look any kind of serious. It shows that were goofy with each other and that were happy around one another. I also like it because me and her always have something on our faces whether it’s a filter, paint, glitter, etc. we always have something on our faces when we’re together. I think it fits cause not only is it a photo of my best friend and I but it shows how much we’re alike, how close we are, and how we are happy being around one another and we don’t care what people think.

          Romeo vitelli a doctor with a phd is psychology says that “social roles that we take on can change our personally”. He also says that “investing heavily in people can change the way that people think, feel and behave in general”. Having someone always around you can change your personally and it can change everything about you. They say that most the time it have a positive effect but sometime it can have a negative effect. There are many people that change your personality but so does everything around us. They say that traumatic events and changes can change your personality. “As our lives change, so do our personalities.”

          In the article the Personality myth they ask “can a persons personality change?” And they say that person can change their personality depending on the people and events they encounter. They also saying “it’s not what’s inside you but also what and who is around you.” Where you were at and who you are around can change your personality. people act differently around different people in different places they are. So what you doing who you’re with changes the personality of not just who you are but of the other person to.

          I believe that our personality changes depending on who we are around, what we are doing, and who you’re doing it with. I believe if you are around your parents you’re going to be an angel but if you’re with your friends you can cause trouble. It’s not a bad thing but depending on who you’re with and what you’re doing I believe that everyone changes because you put up a different personality for different people to get along with them. People change for the people and that’s a good thing but they also change for themselves and there could be a good thing and positive thing in my opinion but if they don’t want to change their not going to. I say our personalities change everyday little by little and they people we associate with have a big impact on our personality.

Destinys Self- Protrait

Music stops the thought-filled mind

Rationale

My flash fiction is music stops the thought filled mind and my picture is me with headphones in and it’s also black and white with flowers on my head because of a snapchat filter. The headphones show the process of the music stopping the thoughts going to your mind. Music gets you thinking about other things other than what’s actually on your mind. The black and white is the simple times compared to the new and complex times. The flowers represent the beauty because beauty can be in many forms it's just shown in the picture as beauty. It also represents the growth a person can make because the  way a flower grows can almost be compared to how a human grows. The headphones represent how you can block out distractions with the music you’re listening to. You don’t have to listen to anyone talk to you when you have your headphones in.

One pager

The average people either believe they have the same personality or have similar. They say you have similar personalities to the people you hang out with that’s why you end up clicking with them. They say your personality doesn’t really change through the years like many believe. Americans today tend to believe that each person with a similar personality will gravitate to someone that is similar to them or someone that is completely different from them due to how they see themselves or act. They say opposites attract in some groups you have different personalities but you always have some people that are pretty similar or each person has some kind of similar traits or personality. They say the way we react to certain things defines us as a person or our personality.

Freud believes that during a conflict we act upon what we feel and the way we control the urges define us as people and our personalities. He also believes that our egos are broken down into three parts and each one controls a different part of the brain.  

    Freud’s claim that during a conflict we feel and act upon our urges and that it defines us rests upon questionable assumption that some people know they are acting that way and some don’t. You run into the idea of people actually doing it on purpose or was it really an impulse. You tend to act the way you want to certain situations based on what your friends are doing or just whatever you want to do. Throughout different age groups there are always going to be different examples. In high school if your friend is skipping your impulse is to want to go with them and see what you could do outside of school, but you actually go to class so you don't get in trouble by your parents. All because there's a phone call home and they will know. Middle school you do the group projects and you really don’t want to do the assignment. Your impulse is going to be to not do it because you don’t care about your grades except when they get sent home and there is a bunch of missing assignments and you get in trouble. So you do the project so you don’t get in trouble.

                                                           City of Braves, I'm Never Scared   

My image... I was born in Atlanta,Ga and as yo know one of  our famous pro teams are the Atlanta Braves so its just a saying that we say down there, just what we've all learned growing up was even when your scared don't show any signs of weakness.                                 

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      People feel that’s someone’s personality is just a thought. A persons actions mainly come from how that person is feeling at that time. Some would say that teens have the biggest personality changes because they’re at the stage where they’re trying to figure themselves out and see who they really are.

      I believe identities are formed by what you see is right or wrong and how you choose to let these situations effect your life. I know people who’ve been around the worst things and look at those situations and think of them as things they should stay away from or things they should never do in life. While other see those things, and think because they are surrounded by it that they must do the same or think it’s natural, not because it’s always the right decision but because it’s all they know. I always thought that you either learn from the mistakes being made around you or you let them control your actions and how your identity is formed. The last couple weeks we listened to audios and watched videos that made me believe that you can be the only person to truly form your identity and know who you are and what you want to be. How you chose to look at the situations and influences around you that will help you decide the results and outcomes of your life.

      I’ve always been a goofy and slightly intelligent person. I loved telling jokes and seeing others laugh and it just carried on with me through the years. I believe people never stay the same whether it’s mentally or physically so yes people can change. I used to be a troubled young person but now I’m all about sports and school. A person has total control over their own bias because it’s your own mind, appearance and body. I’ve learned that bias could be just a thing in people’s minds People would are locked up interact with biases the most I feel. I tend to judge people not because I purposely do it but because you always have thoughts going on in your head no matter who or what the situation is. I believe people can grow out of biases, the thing that stops people from getting away from a certain bias is the lack of intelligence on that subject.

Caleb Fairbanks self portrait

Everyone sees people. Just different pieces.

Artist message: I have gotten to know people at a good time in their life and they're good people. Then They get into a relationship, or get a job or a nice car and they change. I know this because i became one of those people. About a year and a half ago i got into a relationship. After about six months of this relationship i realized i didn't like who i was. I was rude, cocky and out of order, and i knew people saw it. I pushed the idea out of my head however. After a year i realized my relationship had went very wrong. I found out she was lying about very extreme things, things that were the main reason for my relationship still existing and stuff that was very bad. At that time i knew i had to get out, she would ruin my life, she would ruin my chances with The Marines and any chance of being happy. I saw what had happened the relationships i had ruined, friends and even family. I have worked. and worked. and worked. to get these people to give me a second chance and i don't blame a single person who hasn't given me another shot. So people see me, but the one's that know the real me, the one that doesn't just joke his way around a real conversation to avoid discomfort see the real and full me. They know why i got out, why the Marines mean so much to me and why that relationship almost killed a lot of my life, which adds another layer of depth.

One Pager: Self Portrait project

Average people in the United States seem to have a belief that a person has the same personality throughout life. People believe that who you are when you are young will dictate what/ who you will become. Basically if you are a good person, you will continue to be a good person you’re whole life, and the same for bad people or criminals.

            In the invisibilia podcast, Alex Spiegel talks about what she first thought of her idea to introduce TED talks into prisons. The first person she met was Dan, they seemed to get along and he seemed like a good guy, she later searched him up and found he was a convicted rapist. Her first thought about Dan was that for someone “to commit a terrible crime there must be something wrong with you.” This was caused by her initial bias about personality. She later learns that “What makes us, us isn’t always just our past personality". Another personality bias was discussed in the "Higher Education" article. Coach talks about how people change and that's why "Coach always gave second chances." Both sources show that personality should not be viewed as it is, as a set thing.
   I think that personalities can change. I'm a good example of how people can change. i've changed from someone who cared about all people and someone who tried to help everyone because i cared. Until i got into a relationship and became self centered. i stopped caring about others, i lost friends, even family because of the relationship. And now i am in the process of getting back to my old self.

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Flash Fiction:

Women, Muslim, Hijabi,

Heart, Brain, Soul,

Love, Pain, Loss…

Human.

Artist Statement :

In my self portrait I chose to express myself by painting a picture of a girl in a hijab who represents me. The hijab or scarf that I wear is who I am and represents me in many ways, it sets me apart from the rest of the group and gives me the confidence I need to strive and be who I am. But there are also downfalls of wearing the hijab. In my image I used fallen buildings and rubble to represent the pain, struggle, and hardship that I have faced. Not only did the rubble represent the fact of the biases that effect me but also the actual pain and sadness I feel that is always pushed to the background, I chose to put it in the background to show how I always push my struggles, pain, and hardship down and hide it with my outer facade of perfection and joy. It shows that even when the pain and the suffering comes through, it is always kept hidden in the background. I tied this part of my project to my flash fiction where I stated words that every person feels whether its love, loss, or pain and tied it with a Muslim women. Because of the stereotypes about Muslims that the media has created, so many Muslim women are degraded and feel this pain. That is what the rubble represents as well as the hardship that I have personally endured. The yellow flower that is covering my face in the self portrait shows the hope and love that me and all Muslim women have to push through, strive and never give up. I chose the color yellow for its brightness, joy, and feeling of hope.

One pager:

Majority of people have always thought that our personal feelings affect, and even determine the way we see things and therefore how we act in response. They also think that our personalities are who we are, that they can never change. The idea that ever since we were young we had our own personalities that have stayed the same even as we have grown older. Personality theory is a discussion that has been passed around for a very long time.

In Invisibilia’s podcast called “The Personality Myth” she talks about personality theory and the controversy within it. She began talking about personality theory by saying, “Your beliefs and morals manipulate everything you see.” At the end of the podcast Invisibilia goes back to this idea by explaining it a bit more, she talked about how as you grow and develop your beliefs and morals will change as well. She also states that once you re frame the idea you have in your head you can change the way you think. This contradicts Freud’s personality theory, he believed that when faced with a conflict between impulses to do whatever we feel like, and our restraint to control these urges defines who we are. The ideas of Id, ego, and superego, were Freud’s structural model. He thought that a person could only be one of these three structural models, and that was your personality.

Identities are formed through life lessons, and what people were raised around. Identity is very similar to personality, it's who you are. Everyone will see things in different ways, the whole world can't see out of only one lens, everyone has their own specialized lenses. I believe that people can change, with every situation you go through you will learn from what happened and that changes people's mindsets. People grow and develop every day, physically and mentally. Just like Invisibilia said in her podcast about “The Personality Myth”, “When the stuff inside your mind changes, people change.” You don't really have much control over your identity, as people go through life every day they will see, and hear new things that lead them to change in some way, this affects their identity and helps them further adapt to be who they are. Bias is something that everyone in this world has, no  matter who you are or what you believe in you have a bias towards something. There are so many people who are in denial of their biases and don't want to admit they exist or they don't want to push to fix those biases. I have seen bias in many ways, being a Muslim women there are so many people who have implicit and non implicit biases within them based on how the media portrays Muslims. They are bias towards me either because I look different or because I am Muslim. It is possible to fight off some types of biases and change them, but as a human race we will always have biases. Based on what we hear and what we see we obtain biases we don't even know we have. Like the idea that dark chocolate is gross even though you have never tried it. Your bias is that it's gross because that's what people tell you, that's what you have been acquainted to so it's the implicit bias you have within you.

Perception of Beauty

Perception of Beauty   

“Why see me, when you can see all the beauty around me?”

I chose to represent my image by not actually being the focus of the photo. I feel like I would rather people not strongly see my image, but instead see everything around me. I dont have the highest self esteem, so if people can see me, but primarily focus on the things around me, that’s how I’m comfortable living life. I like to be in the background, away from people's focus so that I can take in everything around me, as opposed to me. Society has a harsh image of beauty and personality and how they tie together so sometimes you have to step back and focus on what's around you. That's why I'd rather this image show the beauty and the color of the trees and nature around me instead.

    Society tends to say that personality is set in stone. When someone is born, they already have set characteristics that will carry them through their lives. They dont have the ability to pick and choose the characteristics they want to portray, but instead they are already stuck with them, good or bad, or both. Experts like Freud talk about multiple perspectives such as Id, Ego and Superego as controlling your personality. He claims that the Id is the hidden part of our conscious that we have no control over. It’s the part we are born with, the one that pays attention to only pleasure, with a lack of morals. Then, we have the ego; the ‘reality principle’ which has a large amount of conscious we have control over. It argues with the Id by being organized and rational. And finally, Freud claims we have a superego. The superego is thought to be our moral standards, but a large part of it is still hidden, showing we are not constantly aware of what's right and what's wrong, but the superego strives for perfection.

On the contrary, the podcast “The Personality Myth” by Invisibilia claims that personalities can have a shift or change, that people aren’t necessarily always set in their habits during the span of their entire life. After meeting an inmate in a prison she says “That idea [of how he acted previously] is inconsistent with the image I hold of him in my mind.” She had a bias of how she thought he would be before she met him, solely based on the fact he was in prison. Prior to the meeting, she wasn't even aware of the crime he committed, but she still felt a certain way about him due to the way they met. But when she really met him, he was not the man she expected. She says later in the podcast “That man was who he was, not who he is.” She felt that as he grew and matured, he realized what he did was wrong, and he learned from it, causing a shift in his personality and the way he chose to conduct his manors. The man he was at 18 when he committed the crime was no longer there in her eyes, instead it was placed with a man who was mature, kind and well rounded, despite living in prison for a vast majority of his life.

       "The beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” - A quote from Oliver Pratt rings some truth to me. Although personality may not be beauty, I feel it does correlate with it. I could tell you all the reasons I think that we have the ability to alter our personality, and you could still not believe any of it. Doctors and psychologists could throw lots of lots of verified info and you still wouldn’t believe it, but that’s okay you’re just bias in that way. I think for anyone to claim they have the exact same personality as they did a year ago is not true. As we grow, we experience more things in life, good and bad, that not only alter our views, they can subconsciously alter our personality. 3 years ago, if you asked me my views on 3rd world countries, it would not be the same answer now that I have traveled to one. My trips to Haiti have very much challenged the ways that I see the world, which is not an experience many people my age are fortunate to understand. That scenario has helped me realize there are multiple lenses or viewpoints to something simple, just like personality. I truly believe that as time goes on, our personalities adapt, and the changes in our personality help us become who we are.